Everything is starting to feel normal so I feel lost. Sometimes, I don't feel fulfilled by this teaching job and other times I continue to think that this is a great place to be because it influences people.
I'm learning to look at myself differently. I'm learning to be humble because I realize that I don't give myself second chances. I am learning to live in the present and I am taking a second look on how my thoughts influence my actions and my reactions to others. We are all imperfect. Living in a foreign country, we become more aware of ourselves. It's a good place to be in little bite sized pieces everyday. Self care is a great thing.
There are many things I want to do but I'm not not sure which one would be the best for my own personal development and experience in Korea. I'm not sure why I can't do things that I actually want to do so I end up looking incredibly lazy to others. I attempt to learn Korean with a coworker and I managed not to study at all. I'm trying to become a former tomboy by creating a daily habit of wearing makeup everyday. I feel really confident when I do wear it. Let's say I am trying to transform my outer and inner self into something better. I want to be someone that I want to be around.
There are also moments in my life that I am not aware of until I tell my friends and family of my experiences with the kids at my hagwon. They all tell me that I sound like I am a fun teacher. I didn't realize that before but I guess I am. I try to make a class fun because otherwise who is going to pay attention? Adults want to have fun too!
My most memorable moment last week happened when I witnessed children having fun singing a song with perfect harmony and actions. I don't think I did much but whatever I did, it worked. They listened to the song in their textbook twice. S: Teacher! This is too fast! T: OK, listen one more time! Next, They practiced the song with motions and humming one time. At this point, there was no CD. They were automatically doing this anyway because the song was too fast. I told them to stop the motions. T: Sing the song to me. At first, they weren't singing. It sounded like grumbled English. T: Stop! S: They stop talking. T: Sing! The students sing the entire song. They knew every word really well. So, I gave the call for them to sing the entire song with motions and voice. I felt very happy watching them sing and clap their way through the song. They were having so much fun and I could feel it too.
Immediately after they were finished: T: Great job everyone! That was wonderful! S: Teacher! Your looking really pretty today! The rest of the class starts clapping for me. I smiled and said thank you. You are all great too! S: Yay! They continue to clap. We end the class with a bunch of English games since there was still class to be had. The class helped me to feel confident and to know that I should be here right now doing what I do and not wanting anything more in that moment.
I learned to appreciate what I already had.
I'm learning to look at myself differently. I'm learning to be humble because I realize that I don't give myself second chances. I am learning to live in the present and I am taking a second look on how my thoughts influence my actions and my reactions to others. We are all imperfect. Living in a foreign country, we become more aware of ourselves. It's a good place to be in little bite sized pieces everyday. Self care is a great thing.
There are many things I want to do but I'm not not sure which one would be the best for my own personal development and experience in Korea. I'm not sure why I can't do things that I actually want to do so I end up looking incredibly lazy to others. I attempt to learn Korean with a coworker and I managed not to study at all. I'm trying to become a former tomboy by creating a daily habit of wearing makeup everyday. I feel really confident when I do wear it. Let's say I am trying to transform my outer and inner self into something better. I want to be someone that I want to be around.
There are also moments in my life that I am not aware of until I tell my friends and family of my experiences with the kids at my hagwon. They all tell me that I sound like I am a fun teacher. I didn't realize that before but I guess I am. I try to make a class fun because otherwise who is going to pay attention? Adults want to have fun too!
My most memorable moment last week happened when I witnessed children having fun singing a song with perfect harmony and actions. I don't think I did much but whatever I did, it worked. They listened to the song in their textbook twice. S: Teacher! This is too fast! T: OK, listen one more time! Next, They practiced the song with motions and humming one time. At this point, there was no CD. They were automatically doing this anyway because the song was too fast. I told them to stop the motions. T: Sing the song to me. At first, they weren't singing. It sounded like grumbled English. T: Stop! S: They stop talking. T: Sing! The students sing the entire song. They knew every word really well. So, I gave the call for them to sing the entire song with motions and voice. I felt very happy watching them sing and clap their way through the song. They were having so much fun and I could feel it too.
Immediately after they were finished: T: Great job everyone! That was wonderful! S: Teacher! Your looking really pretty today! The rest of the class starts clapping for me. I smiled and said thank you. You are all great too! S: Yay! They continue to clap. We end the class with a bunch of English games since there was still class to be had. The class helped me to feel confident and to know that I should be here right now doing what I do and not wanting anything more in that moment.
I learned to appreciate what I already had.
